The present moment is all we have. I get that.
I’m quite happy resting in awareness – experiencing sounds, sights, feelings.
I can even turn my attention back in on itself and realise that the “I” at the centre of my experience is just a story, an illusion.
A couple of times I’ve quit my job and focused exclusively on this.
What I struggle with is getting back to the dirty business of living.
Trying to be nondual in a dualistic world.
Talking to people, working with clients, exposure to advertising…it’s all about expectations.
And more specifically, emphasising what we lack and how our lives would improve if only we had it.
We’re currently unhappy with how things are and want them to be better; a results-based measurement.
It’s hard to maintain a curious, playful, and present attitude when dealing with society’s bullshit.
Instead, I get sucked back into thinking if only I could fill this big gaping void of psychological desire, I’d be happy.
It’s fine if you live in a Buddhist monastery, surrounded by like minds with food on your plate.
But in the real world, mindfulness is much harder.